HELLO THERE I AM TWENTY SOMETHING

I moved to a studio apartment recently just a walk away from school. its very cosy and warm. I do miss being with people around me but now i can focus appropriately. It is said that change is as good as a rest; but this change has not made me rest. Moving away from home to a another place in a foreign land was very exciting , nonetheless, i wouldn't say it was not easy... but definately worth it.

I am turning 25 this week (YIKES!!!!) I do feel very old, year do fly past. Just a few years ago i was at 17 doing my first job, then i got to 21 which was the perfect age to be ( it even sounds good to say 'Im 21')   23 came next and this is the age of responsibility, coz your not too young and not too old either and before i even got used to saying i'm 24 ... the big 25 is here. When you get to 25 you stop counting and start using words like mid 20's and late 20's :-)

 The next thing you know you have candles  on your birthday cake like this.

To be honest i'm not looking forward to turning quarter a century!! What makes it worse, are the blogs that tell you.... 'Things you need to do before you turn 25'. Honestly!!! When i was younger i thought 25 was an irky age.. i hoped that by the time i turned 25 i would be working in a international agency, globe trotting and experiencing different cultures, at 25 i hoped to be so in love and staring at the sunset in the horizon, At 25 i thought i'd be at 60 kgs and dressed to kill. At 25 i thought i would have a house of my own holding great dinners and sipping cheap wine in the evenings.

Now that i am 25, i am still in school reading, working at a restaurant, gone to only 2 countries, definitely out of love and no sunset in the horizon because of the classic tale of the English weather!! I am not complaining....... i'm just trying to reiterate that fact that you can't plan out your life to work in a certain way. Things may actually turn out differently, but usually for the better most of the time. Its not exciting to turn 25 when i know i'm am growing closer to getting wrinkles and grey hair. I may be overreacting but.. the journey of a grey hair starts with one birthday!

My take on birthdays. I love attending birthdays may be because other people are growing old and i am not! I have never really had a birthday party ( true) just once. I love small quiet birthdays with the ones i love :-) about  2-4 people or just with my family. That is what i call quality time, big birthdays have to be organized for me coz it is too much pressure and i can over do things...... my OCD kicks in. When my birthday draws closer... the text messages keep flowing 'Where the party @??' Birthdays are when people come eat drink and make merry and  sometimes you take so much effort to prepare and people cancel, show up late and sometimes no presents!

I am spoiled  i love to be pampered. No birthday without presents ... even if it is just a card.. it is the thought that counts. Preparing for a birthday is one of the greatest social pressure i have found hard to come to terms with. However, i will still call all my friends for a birthday dinner and make merry till the sun comes up ;-0.

Turning 25, makes you feel like this when the big things in life start. In terms of thinking about career, friends,love and marriage. This is when your parents stop giving you do's and don'ts and they do listen to your opinion as a grown up.

I sure do want to hang on to my early 20's where i partied till the sun came up!! when spontaneity was the order of the day........ when i loved dangerously! There are no limits in the early 20's. Rest assured i am not changing so much, i think compromise is what has to suffice :-0 The balancing act.

I am so blessed to come this far.... i have had great highlights in my early 20's and the downs were not that bad. In this 25th year of my life i plan to grab life by the balls.... travel to many places that i have always wanted to, get that job that i want, lose that weight that i don't want. If i can't watch the sunset in the horizon then i will be dancing in the rain. This life is for me to savour its delights. A happy 25th to me!!! (Drum rolls)!